Fulfilling Love

The woman living in sexual bondage feels completely helpless and feels that there’s no escape; she is trapped, wrapped in chains, and she is in to sin so deeply that she can barely even breathe.  Here in, lies my story.  I was a small town Christian girl.  I loved the Lord deeply as a teenager, so how did I end up at age 27 in complete, and total sexual bondage?  How did I enter into sexual perversion?  How could this happen?  How could this happen to a Christian?  It can happen.  It did happen.   And as I share with you the details of how it happened, I earnestly pray that the Lord will use my story to help set women free.  I pray that my story will prevent women from even going down this path of sexual sin.
It begins as something gratifying to the flesh, and it ends up in complete destruction of your very life.  I am going to share with you the downward spiral of sexual sin.  It is very dangerous.  Do not be deceived, sin grows.  What seemed to start off as fairly harmless, led me down a path that I never could have even imagined.  I went to the edge of hell and dangled my feet in it.  And the craziest thing is that Jesus went with me.  He says that He will never leave us or forsake us. I love Him so much because He never abandoned me in my sin.  When I walked in darkness, He walked with me.
I realize that this book I am writing may be controversial in the Christian world, but that should not be.  The world shouts “Sex” from the rooftops; it’s plastered everywhere.  Our schools teach it to our children.  Our teens are talking about it all of the time among themselves and experimenting with it.  College students are consumed with it.  Women in their thirties and forties are looking for ways to spice up their sex life, and yet most of the time, in the “Church” we say, “Hush now.  We can’t speak of such a thing.  We must keep that to ourselves.” I say to you, “Read Song of Solomon.”  The Lord is very explicit about sex.  He created sex.  He created the pleasures of sex.  He made our bodies to enjoy sex. 
My book is not hush, hush, because I was a Christian girl that knew nothing about sex.  I knew nothing about the dangers of sex that could take place in a marriage bed.  I would have never thought that the sexual relationship between a husband and a wife could be the one thing that brings that marriage to total destruction; the one thing that brings that marriage to divorce.  And I say to you, my dear friend, “What about our lost and dying world that is drenched in the sexual realm?”   Sexual sin is only growing in the world around us. 
We, as Christians, can no longer be so hush, hush about it.  Sexual bondage is very real.  The ones that are just beginning to dabble in sexual sin have to know the danger that lies ahead of them.  Sexual bondage is hard to escape.  The ones trapped in it have to know that there is hope.  The ones trapped in it have to know that there is a way out.  The ones trapped in it have to know that Jesus Christ can set them free, and once they are free, they will be free indeed.   They have to know that He gives His complete forgiveness.  They have to know that He gives His complete love.  They have to know, and we have to tell them
Romans 10:13-15
For "whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved." How then shall they call on Him in whom they have not believed? And how shall they believe in Him of whom they have not heard? And how shall they hear without a preacher?  And how shall they preach unless they are sent? As it is written: "How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the gospel of peace, who bring glad tidings of good things!"  (NKJ)
The enemy was very well pleased at what was taking place.  He was roaming all around my house, and he was taking over in a very seductive way; he was taking over in my marriage bed.
You and I will travel together along the path of my past; the evil path that took me to the edge of hell.  But you and I will also travel together along the present path of my life; the holy path that has taken me into the presence of Almighty God.  He is my best friend and He blows my mind all of the time!  He is the most real person to me in my whole entire life and I am going to share with you who He is to me right now; who He has been to me since I came back to Him.  So, I will be writing about sexual sins, but in between, I will be writing about the magnificent things of the Lord; and this, my friend, is how He is going to enable me to share my testimony with you.
We think that what we put into our minds will not hurt us.  We think that what we listen to and allow our ears to hear will not affect us.  We think that what our eyes see will not change us.  We think these things, my dear friend, because we are thinking them with a human mind.  As soon as we allow our minds to step over into the spiritual realm, we will see clearly, and we will think differently concerning these things.  You will realize the ramifications of feeding your flesh.  You will realize that what you place in front of your eyes can change you.  You will realize that what you hear with your ears can affect you.  And you will realize that the thoughts that you are placing in your mind can hurt you.   
I have a question for you – How do you become friends with someone you don’t know?  You are first introduced to them.  You then spend time with them.  You get to know them.  You become comfortable around them and you begin to build that friendship.  Before you know it, you are good friends.  Sin is the same way.  I was introduced to sexual sin.  I spent time in sexual sin.  I was getting to know it and I was becoming comfortable with it.  Sexual sin was becoming my friend. 
In my pain, in my emptiness, in my hopelessness, I cursed at my Lord.   And you know what He was doing?  He was crying for me.  He felt my pain.  He knew my frustration as I was trying to find some sort of satisfaction in this very empty world; as I was trying to fill this incredible void that was in my heart.  He knew that I didn’t really mean what I had just said.
This is what He knew, “You are almost there My precious daughter.  You are so close.  Don’t give up on Me.  Don’t let go of My hand.  You can do this.  Choose Me.  I will satisfy you in ways that you never dreamed possible.  I will fill that void.  I will take away that pain that you are carrying around deep within your soul.  I will stop at nothing to have you.  I will never leave you or forsake you.  I don’t care how many times you spit in My face, you can never run too far.  I am always here for you.  Come, My beloved daughter, and allow Me to take away all of this hurt.  You are already glorified in My eyes.  You are precious in My sight.  Let Me show you what I have already done for you.  You already hold the victory because You are mine.