A Spiritual Walk With God

My story

My mother lived with her mother with 5 kids. My mom was divorced and at that time I was just a baby in my mother’s arms. Years went by, and now Am 4 years old. My mother was seeing a man. The following week my mother brought him by to meet us. My mother told him if she married him, he must love her children as if they were his very own, so Ronald said yes. He looked at all 5 of us and said may I be your father? All five of us hugged him and he said I love you all. I spoke up and said what is a father? He just laughs with a smile on his face. The next day we all went to school. My brother Dennis was so excited and told everyone in the class and yelled out loud I have a father. In 1957 I started first grade and had a great Teacher. When I got into third grade, I had a harder time with my work. One day Miss Bullying, my teacher said she wanted to give me a test to see how she could help me. Miss Bulling corrected my test papers that showed that I needed help, so she talked to my parents and the decision to place me in a classroom for children with special needs.

When the children at school found out that I was put in a special Ed class. The next day when I entered the bus and I sat down the children would mistreat me by pulling my hair, and say I was a nobody because I was in special Ed. I would begin to cry and when I would get on the bus the children could make fun of me and pull my hair on the bus. There were times my brother Dennis would pull the kids off me from beating me up. Every day when I would get off the bus, the kids would sometimes spit in my face, and say that I was a nobody and that I would be better off dead. This would occur frequently on and off the bus. As I would walk home some of the kids would degrade me; and they would hold me so that they could slug me in the stomach. They would throw stones and laugh at me. The children would mock and call me names, make fun of being developmentally challenged or of my stutter. This would continue till one day a precious Godly woman, that lived on the Conner near the bus stop.

Alice stood on her porch one day and told the children that they were doing wrong and that every human began to be a person. Alice would ask me to sit with her on the porch and have some milk and cookies with her. As I was eating, Alice was telling me how important I was in the eyes of God; that God has a special plan for my life. Alice began to tell me that she was going to take me halfway home from school. When I got home, I would just cry and say am I what these kids say I am.

The pain I felt was so deep, that I would go into my make-believe world, where I felt safe. I would go into my mother’s room and lock the door and, look in the big minor I would visualize speaking in front of a big church, before many people whose lives would be touched by the songs of God in my heart. I would visualize being on TV. When I was around my family, they would have to listen to understand what I was saying, because I stuttered badly. On my 10th birthday, I remember this was an extremely exciting day because we were going to see my grandma, Nylund. My grandma Pearl was a Minister and was a prayer warrior. My mother and grandma would pray daily for a miracle to take place in my life. In my home, sitting in the back seat, I was crying very quietly. I looked out the window because it was a beautiful starry night. I said, is there a God, who could love a person like me, and is there any hope for a nobody like me. The tears began to run down my cheeks, and a presence that I have never felt before came upon me.

I heard a still small voice saying to me, looking out through the window, and as I looked out, I rubbed my eyes and said to myself, am really seeing what I think I am seeing. Jesus standing on the right hand of the father, and I saw people and angels behind the people and a big rainbow behind them. I rub my eyes again and lookup. There was an image that looked like a picture of Jesus in the bible. Jesus was on a chariot of white horses coming down to earth with many people on white horses following him, and his angel. Then as it was coming towards me, the chariot of white horses vanished away. I then felt a presence coming upon me, that was so peaceful, and I felt safe. At that time, I did not know that it was the Holy Spirit. I heard a voice saying to me, be still my little one, not cry; I am the Lord thy God, who is during you. so, peace Am going to heal you and raise you up, for my glory and my kingdom, and I have called you as my Minster to my people, to raise the dead, heal the broken heart, and set my people free, and in those days, I will bring a godly man and woman who will truly be your friend, and believe your vision that I have given you. For I have called you into the minster, and you will see these things come to pass in the future, so the child is still and knows that I have spoken to you this night forth. I shall call you, my sunshine1969.

Years later God sent me a Christian friend in my life. Her name was Judy. One day during the month of May. Judy called me and asked me if I would go with her and her mother to Faholo Park in Grass Lake, Michigan, where they were having camp meetings. We are going out to the church campgrounds to help clean up the grounds for3 days. I asked my mother if I could go with Judy at first, but then she gave it some thought and said that I could go with her mother to the campgrounds. After we had attended the campgrounds, we began walking to pick up trash; and cleaning up the inside of the building to get ready for evening worship. My friend Judy Introduced me to the caretakers (Pastor) daughter, she was fourteen years old.

While we were walking around picking up trash the Holy Spirit said look up, to our left what do you see! I see a young man who looks around 18 that is coming my way. I then heard a still small voice saying to me; Behold your husband the one I have chosen for you. Do not say anything in the way I have told you for Mark will run away. I said to the Lord! This man will not like me the way I am because I stutter, but the Lord said to be still and know I am doing the work. Finally, the service started. Before I sat down, we ran into Mark (my future husband) and I asked him to sit with us, and said I guess I could. The service began as you could hear the music being playing songs from the hymnbook. We sat down, and the Evangelist Jimmy Swaggart began to minister the word of healing through the blood of Jesus. Then he prayed. He asked the people who needed special healing to come forward and receive your healing. The Holy Spirit prompted me in my heart to go down and I asked Mark if he would go down with me. Mark said I think I’ll just stay here while you go down, but the Holy Spirit was tugging on his heart and for some reason; Mark went down with me to get my healing and saw the miracle before his eyes unfold. God gave back what the enemy stole in my life. God does it all the way. Since that day Mark and I have been going out for 6 months One evening when he came over to take me out that evening, he got on one knee and looked at me and said Cynthia with every beat of my heart will you be my wife and live with me forever I said Yes.