God First

I became a Christian when I was in high school, but at that time I didn't have anyone to teach me what it means to live a Christian life, no one to teach me the importance of developing a relationship with God, going to church, nor reading the Bible. All I understood at that time was that I had my ticket to Heaven, I didn't know there was anything more than that.

So I've spent most of my life in complete ignorance of God!

Before God touched my life, I was ill-tempered, angered easily, was judgemental, wasn't a forgiving person/held grudges, and at times was revengeful. I got stressed easily and worried about everything. I was never fully satisfied with my life, I always felt like something was missing.

It took me losing the person I held most dear to my heart, and me being on rock bottom with no one to turn to for God to get my attention. I lost my mom to cancer. When I lost her I became a walking time bomb ready to explode...I was so angry & bitter & devastated. I was full of pain and despair. And I began seriously doubting God! Doubting He was even real! Because I had heard people talk about these healing miracles He could do or had done. But He didn't answer my pleas to heal my mom and to not take her from me....she died anyway. So I was done with God. I became very withdrawn from everyone, and I didn't care about anything any more. I just couldn't imagine life without my mom.

That's when God made a powerful appearance in my life! He showed me His power and proved His existence to me by giving me a vision of my mom. He let me see her healed & with a brand new body, free of disease. That vision of my mom was my turning point...it erased all my doubt about God, and definitely made a believer out of me.

Once I acknowledged Him and; His presence in my life, things started changing for the better. First, the anger started disappearing little by little, then the pain started dissipating and I began feeling this comfort that I hadn't felt before. Each day I became a more joyful and a less hopeless.

Since I've learned to live my life for God instead of my own selfish desires, my life is so much more fulfilling. My life now has meaning & purpose. It's full of joy & love instead of anger & pain. Each day I'm filled with contentment & peace. I'm a kinder person now, have learned the art of forgiveness/no longer hold grudges, nor am I judgemental, it's been so liberating! God has completely turned not only my life around, but me as well.

I now live a very joyful existence completely fulfilled by the love of God that consumes my heart!