A Woman’s Journey Through Love, Marriage, Divorce and Redemption

I knew deep in my heart that God would help me get through this, but it hurts right now. I remembered in the Book of Ecclesiastes in the Bible what it says about a time of sadness. Chapter 3:1-4.

Vs1 To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the Heaven

Vs2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to pluck up that which is planted

Vs3 A time to kill, a time to heal, a time to break down and a time to build up

Vs4 A time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance

Chapter 28 Joy Comes in the Morning

Everyone’s life is in those verses somewhere! This is my time to mourn the death of a marriage. I think in my heart I would never have left him. I really thought I had to stay married to him. I made a commitment to him “till death do us part”. However, there was always that little spark in me that said you deserve better than this. And also the scriptures say that God wants us to prosper (and be in health and have joy). Psalm 30:5 (Part 2): “Weeping may endure for a night, but Joy comes in the morning”. I know I had to work through this but I could not have done it alone. I just talked to Jesus all along the way and believed I would come out of it OK. But it’s still hard going through it. We are only human. And God realizes we need his help. Some days I was calm and other days I felt abandoned, frustrated and sad. I think we all go through the same thing. But I knew, I knew, my God was with me. In the Bible the Book of III John (Third John) Chapter 1: Verse 2 says “Beloved, (that’s me, that’s you (if you belong to Jesus)) I wish above all things that you may prosper and be in health even as your soul prospers”! I am now 78 years old and feel as young as I was at 30 years old! I am in good health, my teeth are good, my mind is sharp, and my attitude (finally) is faith filled. I know my God shall keep me till the end. But to get back to where I was – still sad at times. Here is a little story about how I felt a few months after he left. Again, I think many women go through a little time of despair. I knew even when I was going through it Jesus would Redeem me from all hurt and confusion. I had to walk through it. Sometimes I think, because I am writing all this from experience, that I can help some other woman (or many women) to realize there is LIFE after divorce.

Chapter 29 Bust Out Of That Cocoon

Here is the story of my feelings at the time.

I don’t know who I am anymore. What is my life all about?

My friends have all been gone from my life for years. My self-esteem is gone. My sense of wellbeing is gone. Who am I? Why am I here? I need help! Who can I turn to? The world sees a little wife and mother and thought everything was always good. I have put on such an act that I have convinced everyone I am happy. But I am Not

I have to remember the Promises of God in the Bible. So I wrote this to encourage myself (and all who are reading this). This woman knows how you feel and what you are going through. We are all sisters under the skin!

Believe and See

Sometimes you look Around this world Don’t know what’s Going on

It seems that there’s Nobody there And you’re feeling All alone

Sometimes you’ll look Up to the sky But only see With (outward) eyes

And when you see The Butterfly With colors All abloom Did you even think He’d look like that Asleep in his cocoon?

So there are things That we don’t know And things that We don’t see

But there is truth In what I say The Lord really loves And cares for you and me

Call on Him (Jesus) from here below There is so much He wants us to know

The World says “show me And I’ll believe” But God says “Believe me And you will see”

I’ll show you the path And guide your way To walk with Me Every day

And then you’ll never Be alone All you days until I bring you home

I believe God is helping me and working on me and arranging my future as I walk it out each day. Just like the butterfly, I am in that cocoon being formed to be better than I ever was and to have a great and fulfilling life!  I mean, I really believe it; that’s called faith. I pray you believe it for you too.