Who I Am in Christ

If there’s ever been a poster child for someone who has struggled to believe her identity in Christ, I have been that child. And it’s not as if I’ve struggled because I don’t know or haven’t known what my identity in Christ is. I absolutely do know; I just haven’t consistently believed it as truth for myself. I’ve been double-minded and according to the Bible, a double-minded person is unstable in all their ways. Explains a lot ha. After crying out to God and asking Him what was wrong with me, why I keep getting stuck in this same pattern, this same rut, I immediately felt the Holy Spirit gently whisper those two words to me: double-minded. I knew it wasn’t my own thought because I don’t typically talk to myself that gently and I knew it wasn’t Satan because there was nothing accusatory about this revelation. It was truth and I knew it. The Holy Spirit was confronting me, and I had been running from this confrontation for a while, but I felt invited in at the same time. I quickly looked up the definition for “double-minded” so I knew precisely what to repent for and the definition hit me like a ton of bricks square in the gut. Someone who is double-minded is wavering in mind, insincere, and marked by hypocrisy, gulp. Oh God, is this who I’ve become? I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry for not consistently believing what You’ve already said about me in Your Word, for not considering the Living Word of God enough to settle this battle in my mind and my life once and for all. Oh God, I’ve said I believed it, acted like I believed it, thought I believed it, but I’ve also not believed it. I’m insincere, something about me isn’t honest, isn’t real, isn’t genuine because I’ve known the truth, had countless opportunities to believe it, to transform my mind and life accordingly, yet I haven’t consistently done the hard work of renewal. I’ve relied on other things to affirm my identity. I’ve often continued to believe the negative things about myself while proclaiming another, that’s hypocritical. I have no excuse, no good explanation as for why; it’s just the ugly truth. I agreed with God about everything, confessed my sin and made up my mind to finally make up my mind in this matter. I AM WHO GOD SAYS THAT I AM!

It’s not as complex as we sometimes make it to be. Belief is a choice. You choose what you believe in and I can attest to the destructive nature of continually choosing not to believe what God says or being so wishy-washy in the matter. Yet the amazing thing about belief being a choice is that at any point you can start choosing differently. If you’re breathing, there’s still opportunity to align what you believe with what God’s Word says. It’s time to make that choice today, to choose and keep on choosing to believe what He says. It’s time to make the devil very sorry for ever pushing you to this point of determination to become single-minded in your identity in Christ. We can’t go back, but by His mercy we are moving forward!

Friend, God is for you, the King of the heavens and the earth is for you. He’s for your life, for your salvation, for your freedom, for your hope, for your deliverance, for your victory, for your breakthrough; He’s for you. Paul asks the believers in Rome, “If God is for us, who can be against us?” (Romans 8:31 NIV). The resounding conclusion is that no one, absolutely nothing, no power whatsoever could possibly stand against those whom God is for. Shame is not for you, fear is not for you, regret is not for you, sin is not for you, slander, accusation is not for you. The Word of God says that His favor surrounds you like a shield. His kindness and goodness and help and support fully encloses you, protecting you from outward accusation and slander. But friend, can I let you in on a little secret? You are on the inside of that shield; therefore, you are most vulnerable to your own words of accusation and slander. Some of us need to realize the amount of damage and destruction we have encountered isn’t as much an outside job as it is an inside one, that we’ve nearly destroyed ourselves with our own negative thoughts and words. I know this has been my story. Oh God, forgive me! It’s time to speak the truth. It’s time to align what you say with what God says about you. It’s time to make up our minds to be single-minded in how we think about ourselves as it relates to the Word of God. It’s time to stop working against yourself when the all-powerful God is for you.

Father,
Today I confess to You my insincerity, my hypocrisy; how double-minded I have been and how unstable as a result. My heart breaks for not believing what You say about me. You are God and I am not. I say that You are my LORD and yet I’ve been so wishy-washy in accepting what Your Word says about who I am? I can’t imagine how this has grieved Your heart. You are my Father and I’ve foolishly leaned on other things for my identity instead of on You. God, forgive me! So today I come before You as Your child. You are so powerful, so big, so strong and yet Your heart is so tender towards me. I’m amazed. I feel so crushed, so broken, so ashamed. I need Your love to wash over me again. I can’t take back the doublemindedness that has marked my relationship with You thus far, but I am deciding that if I do nothing else from here on out, I will work to become single-minded in my identity in Christ. Help me, Holy Spirit. Let who I am match who You say that I am in Jesus’s name, amen.