Livin’ Life in the Dark!

My journey through life has been painful and full of joy. I lived a life that I thought I could do on my own without any help or guidance from God. I never share my thoughts or feelings with anyone and the thought of writing a book about my struggles still baffles me to this day.

On June 15, 2018 at 9:44 P.M. I had a strong spiritual moment while lying in bed. The message that came to me was “How long does it take you to listen to God and why do we as people not always listen the first time he reaches out for us.”

On June 16, 2018 at 12:12 A.M. I was woke up in the middle of the night with an overwhelming sensation and thought to why I consistently deflected God. I wrote down three separate lines and did not know why they came to me.

1. Deflecting God

2. Hiding from Christ

3. Fighting Alone

I knew it had to deal with my life and the challenges I had fought through over the years. It was such a strong message that came over me in the middle of the night, but I had no idea what and why it came to me in that fashion.

These messages resonated with me but I would slowly just forget about them as time went by. I did not put any thought into those messages until nearly 4 years later when I woke up in the middle of the night on March 8, 2022 at 1:07 A.M. I woke up from a dead sleep and was instantly wide-awake with the name of this book and all the chapters that needed to be included. It was clear as day and I still remember the instant feeling of what those past messages are now leading me too.

I now realized that God was putting it on my heart to write a book, which in all seriousness still makes me laugh. I am not your typical author and the thought of me writing a book someone may actually read still makes me shake my head. I am a labor worker, a manufacturing operator, manufacturing leader, a firefighter, an EMT (emergency medical technician), a father, and a husband.

I did not know the first thing about writing my feelings or my story down. I slow played this process for quite some time. I finally sat down for one day and wrote ¾ of this book. I could not stop and this story came out. I figured the manner in which I wrote it was good but I had a change of heart. I realized when I read back through it that I left a lot of details out that were very needed to actually tell the story.

At the end of March 2024, I was on my lunch break from work and had a huge feeling come over my body that actually took my breath away. God told me “I asked you to do something, what are you waiting for?” All I could think is, God asked me to tell my story and I was dragging my feet. I prayed to God and asked how am I even going to get this published? I do not have the money to get this thing published. The only answer to that prayer was that this book needed to be completed as soon as possible. So, I worked on getting it done and felt like it now met all of the requirements from the moment this came to me.

April 9, 2024, the book was very close to being completed and I was ready to click save and walk away from it. God had other plans for this story. My dad gifted my family the money needed to publish this story. We were at one of my sons golf tournaments and he asked me if I had a pen. He then proceeded to make this book come to life without even knowing that I was writing it.

This book is not known to exist by very many people. I do not share my thoughts, feelings, or plans with anyone. To know God spoke to my dad and made this happen makes me tear up every single time. This book is the story God wanted me tell and my dad unknowingly did God’s work on Earth.

Please enjoy this story and know the pain I had to go through in my life is what truly brought me closer to God. God worked with the people I love most to make this happen and it is because of God this story even exists. I am not your typical author and had no dreams over the course of my life to write anything. My wife knew that I was writing a book and allowed me the time to finish. She was supportive of the idea and knew that it was time to get it done as well. This is my story and my dad did the work of bringing it to life.

God Bless!